from I'm Not Who I Want to Be, released May 20, 2016
What's the worst that I could say right now?
If I swallow my tongue maybe you'd here me out
You'd know I have some things to say, and the looks you give to him bother me anyway
But after holding back my words I found that they were tearing at my skin
And all the hate I keep within was echoing the things you did
And the scars upon your wrists tell me you hated this

I never felt so bad my entire life
I'll say it twice
I'll never speak your name just to say "I miss you" even if I do
And I'll cross my heart and hope to die a thousand times before I'll speak your name just to say "I miss you"

What's the worst that I could do right now?
Well maybe I'll just run away, but God knows I'd rather stay and figure this one out
I'm really sick of giving up just when things in life get rough, cause I've never been the strong one
I couldn't tell you how I feel, my thoughts just never seem to be real
Cause I'm running out of time again to cover up the mess I made
I always make the same mistakes

Well I know that my head's been a mess, but I'm just trying to stay on all the goals that I make
And I know that my hearts been a wreck, but it seems all your time's wasted on fallacy